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Healing for what?
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I’ve spent a lot of my life thinking about healing in terms of what I was trying to heal from. Old relationships. Old beliefs. Trauma. Grief. Ways of organizing myself around other people. Things my nervous system learned a long time ago that were once incredibly useful and eventually became pretty limiting. Lately I’ve been asking a different question: Healing for what? A couple of weeks ago I signed up for flamenco. I’ve also been looking for a voice teacher and thinking again about dance, music, art, and parts of myself that at various points in my life felt completely ordinary to me, and then somehow became peripheral. I don’t think I realized how much of healing I had organized around becoming less distressed, less activated, less stuck, less hurt. Those things matter, obviously. But I don’t want the ultimate goal of my life to be “less symptomatic.” I want something on the other side of all that. I want more pleasure. More expression. More intimacy. More creativity. More courage. More truth. More ridiculous beginner moments where I have no idea what my feet are supposed to be doing. I want to feel more like myself. And I wonder if we sometimes get so focused on the thing we are trying to stop doing that we forget to ask what we want all that newly available energy for. So I want to give you a few minutes to sit with that today. Think of something you have spent time trying to heal, change, understand, or recover from. Then ask yourself: If this took up less space in my life, what would I want to take up more? Not what should replace it. What do you actually miss? What are you curious about? What did you used to love? What part of you has been waiting around while so much energy went toward surviving, managing, healing, fixing, or figuring things out? And then one more question: What is one small way I could give that part of my life a little more room this week? It doesn’t need to be profound. Mine involved flamenco shoes. And castanets :) and a new Flamenco practice skirt. :) Yours might involve calling someone, making something, resting, swimming, flirting, reading fiction again, planting something, singing badly in your kitchen, taking yourself somewhere beautiful, or finally trying the thing you keep saying you want to try. We spend a lot of time asking what needs healing. I’m increasingly interested in what wants to live. If something came to you while reading this, hit reply and tell me. I’d genuinely love to know. With love, Tanya |
Tanya Dantus
For women ready to stop shrinking. You’ll get somatic tools, honest reflections, and invitations to go deeper—circles, events, and practices that help you feel your boundaries, not just think them. Sent with intention, not noise.
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